I love my boyfriend with all my heart but I feel that I give so much more into our relationship than he does. No, I am not saying that is a bad thing, it just makes me feel a bit silly, naive, young when I tell him I love him about a million times a day (the use of hyperbole there of course) and kiss him on the cheek and text him every day and tell him how happy I am to be with him and how happy he makes me and how wonderful he is and the concern I feel when he doesn't text me one day.
I spoke to him about it the other day, we were drunk and alone (otherwise I wouldn't have had the courage to speak up about it) and I asked him if I was obsessive. He got really concerned and comforted me and said he'll try and be more attentive and loving. But, truth is, I don't want him to be, I mean that would be absolutely lovely because love and attention is what I love from a guy but I feel way too obsessive that I need to turn it down a bit. I don't want to be like this all my life but I can't help but get too attached and dependent on the one I love.
I guess I'm thinking about this because I'm thinking of my boyfriend in France for the week and having fun with his family whilst I'm here missing him way too much to get on with life.
I need to get on with life, just get on with it.
Why should my life have to stop because he isn't in it for one week?
I am so infatuated with him.
It's not my fault though I swear he is just simply amazing. But oh dear, someone help me please!
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